Liyana Amaneena

It's a very depressing night.. I walked alone for the winner announcement event.. in the rain... Crying.. I had a mental breakdown, jalan daripada uni ke rumah.. I hate hugs, but for the first time in my life, I'm begging for one.. Sedihnya Ya Allah, I didn't put any expectation before I came to the event, but just now, I was alone, and seeing other groups receiving their rewards, tengok the marketing manager siap passed his business card to them, I never felt this down I put my blood and sweat on this project, dengan ada groupmate bermasalah.. Why do I feel so frustrated? I said I did not put any expectation... idk.. maybe I'm too exhausted... While I was walking, I really hope that I could come home to someone, to listen to my heart, who could give me a warm hug and let me cry in their arms.. But I have nobody... I survived these two years crying in my blanket..  I just need a pat on my back, telling me I did great and they are so proud of me.. I'm so exhausted ya

Hi everyone, It's currently 19th October 2020, 12.30p.m NZ time, and Yana has 1 submission (4000 words narrative) this Wednesday, and a final exam next week. Yana nak tulis ni, supaya in future, bila Yana tengok balik ni, Yana sedar kesusahan hari ini berbaloi. Last week, up until now, I feel so exhausted and disconnected from reality. I didn't pick up the calls (I'm sorry Aishah & Naddy), I didn't reply to people's text (I'm sorry Aishah, Melon & Sue) but I am really exhausted. Back to back doing the UCMUSA thingies, trying to secure the collaboration alone, doing the media things alone and not-to-forget how I had to deal with not-punctual people for my group assignments. Okay first, the UCMUSA things. I hate it when people said "aa semua ni hangat hangat tahi ayam je", I know this is bad for myself, but I've been living with a belief that "If it's not me, then who else?". If you want to do something, you have to be the one w

I cried So hard But it helped Now a girl is no longer confused She knows her feelings She understands the situation And she's happy with that Or at least, she will be happy

That’s why I hate having nothing to do Just like now. I couldn’t sleep. My mind is wandering, around.. The thoughts kill me I’m confused I don’t know whom should I talk to I don’t know I don’t know what I’m feeling right now A girl is confused With her own feelings With his feelings With the things she did The things he did The things they did I don’t know what is this I stay up everyday, thinking Figuring out what is this I don’t know The pain I feel in my chest My heart aches But I’m confused Who am I to ask? What are we? What is this? Why are we doing this? Where is this going to lead us? Who am I to you? Who you are to me? Is this right? Or is it wrong? Somebody, please Enlighten me Tell me I am confused. At night, I scold myself For doing such things I promise myself I’m not going to repeat it I hate myself Because I know I will keep doing it During the day I know I f

participants ft facis. Hey okay I volunteered to be the Project Manager for NZCamp 2 2018. I swear I felt so nervous as the first camp received so many great reviews and ofc people put a higher expectation on the 2 nd   camp right?! So the preparation went well, and Alhamdulillah our chairman was willing to fund our t-shirts (I didn’t even request for it) and he even funded t-shirts for participants!! Alhamdulillah it has been a long time since KYSB provided t-shirt for NZCamp’s participant. But I’m quite disappointed with the quality of the t-shirt smh not going to order it from this vendor anymore. So basically the aim of this camp is to promote our college lah so my team and I had to prepare fun activities to attract those participant to join us here in KYSB. participants. my fav assistant <3 p=""> my superb activities committees.  It’s hard you know to attain cooperation from everyone but Alhamdulillah my committ

ALOHA!!! Guess who just decided to deactivate her instagram? YAAA MEE! ya ya i know i did this before but just for a while bcs i was so eager to post about my amazing life in SGS. But yes i found another option now, BLOG!! Idk i just think that i spent too much time on ig, putting my nose in someone else life, then i will end up feeling ungrateful with my life. So why not i just cherish my memories here, i could post pictures, with a long caption here! but... just like before, i might reread the previous posts, and feel cringe and delete all of them, but i will try not to do that again!! No more deleting posts :) SO!! Stay tune, future Liyana! Liyana is going to upload more posts after this. this is an old photo, but this is my reaction now HAHAHAHA